Surrender

My father-in-law once told me that happiness can have more to do with having preferences rather than expectations. I have found this to be very true. Although expectations are completely reasonable for certain aspects in life, they also set you up for disappointment.

Today was a day for preferences and not expectations. My right arm had been swelling some over the last couple of days. Today, included an ultrasound to rule out blood clots. Well, the ultrasound confirmed the clots. So, I had my picc line moved from my right arm to my left.

I am not a fan of medical procedures. I do my best to remain positive. However, I readily acknowledge to the staff that I am a bit of a baby and don’t like being a patient. The nurses assured me that this picc line would be a cinch. As I saw my picc line nurse renter the room, I knew I was in good hands. Matthew covered his beard with two masks, tucked his man bun under his surgical cap, and went to work. No pain. Easy as pie.

As I’ve mentioned before, I’m learning many lessons that will take me a while to unpack. Today’s lesson was not about Matthew. Instead, it was about trusting the process - something I have talked with others about before and now am practicing myself.

Spiritually, God has each of us in a process as He is revealing Himself to us and winning our hearts. We may not always understand the what, where, when, and why of things. But, we must trust the process. We must surrender.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and he will make straight your paths.” Prov 3:5-6